two posts in one day...wow. i guess i'm making up for lost time.
my friend tyler was reading my tarot cards the other day (don't ask) to give me some advice about graduate school. he warned me that taking something that i enjoy and trying to force it into a career is a bad idea. i know some other people who have had this same conflict.
a family member loved math in college. she chose a major that incorporated this, but it turned out that it wasn't what she was hoping for.
another is a friend, who loved music and refused to make a career out of it. i think he regrets that decision.
uh. oh.
i always visit a website or a professor or a friend and hope they'll make decisions for me. econometrics is hard, but it's challenging and it's making me buckle down and work. that class is pushing me to be better academically, and it's showing up in other classes. i made a 100 on a calculus test today (bragging, duh).
the point is, if i'm challenging myself, and succeeding, then i'm doing something right. i'm getting my prerogatives in order. i'm spending time with friends who are fun to hang out with. i'm studying subjects that are important to me. i'm doing what i think needs to be done to make a difference, even if my part - for now - is really small.
BUT, the right track now may be the wrong track tomorrow, and vice versa. while i kill myself over grad school applications, i might read something that makes me put more time into a critical language scholarship to go study urdu or turkish. i might meet someone at a football game who wants me to work for them. i might tweet at someone who randomly sees it and offers me a job.
right now my sights are set on continuing my education, but that might change. there may be a bump; there may be a mountain.
whether it's the right way or the wrong way, i might not know until it's too late, but at least i'll be moving forward.
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